love at first sight

31-July.HOT. Though i have left this blog for so looonnnnggg, I still haven decide to close this blog as it recorded some parts of my life. From the nuffnang's analysis, the visitors for this blog is getting less and less each day. huhuhu...so pity.

After so many years, i found her. She looks exactly like my first love---which i fail to make end meets. Sometime, i thought am i trying to find someone to replace the first one? or just this is the type of girl i like? However, uncertainties remained....

Before entering psychiatry posting (or in layman term ward for crazy people), I thought i have antisocial personality, but in fact, its all wrong. Antisocial Persanality disorder is related to social rules or right violation.

Now, i diagnosed myself as having schizoid personality disorder--a person who doesnt enjoy close relationship, lack of close friends, take pleasure in few activities, chooses solitary activity, emotional coldness....but i think i might have bias, but my friend said when he memorize the criteria for this personality disorder, he think about me.haha...

So, a schizoid person will always be uncertain in close relationship. hmmm...mayb if that girl take the first step,keke..it will be easier for me. I know i think too much la, but love is always like this...

Someone asked me what are ur uncertainties? it would be how much time i can spend with her. then, she say: y u wan2hav gf if u don hav the time?

yeah, tat's a good question. the answer is, at this age, sometime u get peer pressure from friends though all my housemate were single.keke..

Any advice? lets round the table...=.="